It's the first of dec. A year since my grandma passed away. I witness her death. It's the most heart breaking feeling. She, on the bed having so much pain. And all I could do was to just stand beside her and do nothing. Do u know how useless do I feel? She was my best beloved Ahma. And one year ago on this very day, she just walked out of my life, permanently.

I remembered when I was young. Ahma kept protecting me when I did something wrong that deserve a hit from my mum. She's the one that would hug me tightly even when I'm in the wrong. She's the one that would give me whatever I want. She's the one that would try her very best to make me happy when I'm not. She's the one that would give me toys, even those that I don't really like, just to make my feel excited on having a new toy. She's the one that would cook for my good food whenever I visit her house. She's the only one that could cook my favourite pig trotter soup that superbly. SHE IS MY AH MA! :'(

I missed her so much. So much that I would some times think of her at night with no reasons and cry to sleep. I regretted not loving her more. I regretted not holding her hands while walking. I regretted not saying "I love u".

To those who had read this post. I just want to tell u all that don't take your love ones for granted. Show them your love towards them while they still can return u their love. Don't be like me who took so many things for granted and in the end, regret.

All I hope now was, GOD!, PLS BLESS AHMA FOR ME. :'(